Retreating from the Retreat

Retreating from the Retreat

This little plot I live on used to be a farm. I still feed a few sheep and a couple of cows but at some point while I wasn’t paying attention the farm has slowly morphed into a retreat.

This little plot I live on used to be a farm. I still feed a few sheep and a couple of cows but at some point while I wasn’t paying attention the farm has slowly morphed into a retreat.

So has the neighbourhood. All of the view properties on the hill above us are inhabited by urban folk who flee the smog every Friday night and curl up in front of their gas fireplaces to watch the sunset. The farmers, too, have mostly retreated to condos and nursing homes in town. Those few who do live permanently on the side road are busy finding some way to cash in on the community’s new role as a haven for the weary urbanite. The landscape is now dotted with craft breweries, cideries, spas, yoga studios and rock climbing gyms all offering diversion and comfort away from the sodium glare of the city.

We might as well have our own statue of liberty on the way into town that says: “Give me your teeming huddled masses yearning to breathe free, de-stress, detoxify and declutter.”

Our children now bring their friends here to find restfulness, reclaim mindfulness, explore different ways of being and, most of all, to eat me out of house and home. I wish I had their talent for living in the moment but I am too busy cooking and cleaning to find that moment.

We grow a lot of food here at the farm. I have pasture beef, pasture hut chickens, pastured pork. My potatoes are chemical free and my eggs are omega-3. But increasingly there are no takers for any of it. Every second person who shows up at the dinner table is either vegan or has an allergy to eggs and dairy. There’s always someone going through a “cleanse” of some kind, whether it’s from sugar or gluten or oxidants. Spiritual cleansing is great and I’m happy to write out a list of negative things in my life and burn it ceremonially while someone bangs away on a hang drum. But these juice cleanses give me a sugar high and attract a lot of fruit flies. I checked with my doctor about it and he advises that I come equipped with two of the most efficient cleansers on the planet; my liver and kidneys. No-one has come up with a more efficient system than that.

“We are what we eat, Dad,” says my eldest son. He has decided to become a kale plant. I always thought kale was more useful as a roofing material than a food but I gave him his own raised bed in the garden and encouraged him to have at it. It turns out the soil in my garden is just perfect for kale. Soon he had a three foot high hedge of it and we were eating kale salads, roasted kale, barbecued kale, kale sandwiches and kale ice cream. I assumed it would eventually bolt like a lettuce and go to seed but kale doesn’t do that. It keeps growing bigger and tougher and more bitter until the snow flies. When the leaves finally turn brown and die I assumed we would then dig up the roots and boil them, too. But no, thankfully, the roots are poisonous. And so we are cleansed of kale until May.

For most of the century before I arrived at Larkspur Farm, this old house hosted a parade of smoker-drinker-carnivores who poured Paris Green arsenic on their potato plants and thought cleansing of any kind was weakening. Some of them died in bed but a lot were killed by falling trees and kicking horses. They did not have the secret to eternal life either but sometimes I think they had more fun.

So the question remains: When you live in a place the rest of the world views as a retreat, where do you go yourself to retreat? We sometimes put the barn on self-feed for a couple of days, borrow an apartment in the city and drive south to soak up the smog. I mix a pitcher of martinis and order in Chinese with extra MSG. Then I run a hot bath and pour in a bag of oxidants, some gluten for the skin and a pinch of RoundUp for overall health.

After a couple of days of this I am re-toxified and ready to return to the fray.

Dan Needles
Dan Needles

Dan was born in Toronto and raised partly in the city and partly in the country. His mother moved the family out of the city each spring to a hobby farm near Rosemont, Ontario where he and his brothers and sisters tended to a herd of Jersey cows and worked on the neighbouring farms of the 7th Line.

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Posted on Wednesday, April 8th, 2020
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